Me & Myself

Huge Decision To Make

2008-05-08T19:24:00.002+08:00

I'm about to make the biggest decision in my life. So lost, just didn't know what to do.

Aof Pornsak...another of my favourite Thai Singer

2008-03-17T22:28:00.004+08:00

Tang Karng Lung Ta Loo Teung Hua Jai
แทงข้างหลัง ทะลุถึงหัวใจ

ไม่ใช่นิยาย ไม่ใช่ละคร
mai chai ni-yaai mai chai la-kon
It's not a fairy-tale, it's not drama...

ที่ฉันมองเห็นอยู่นี้ ที่แท้มันคือความจริง
tee chan mong hen yoo nee tee tae man keu kwaam jing
what I see from here, in fact it's the truth.

คือคนสองคน ที่บอกรักกัน และคนในนั้น
keu kon song kon tee bok rak gan lae kon nai nan
It's two person who said they love each other, and that person

หนึ่งคนคือคนที่ฉัน รักหมดหัวใจ
neung kon keu kon tee chan rak mot hua jai
a person whom I loved whole-heartedly.

สิ่งที่เธอแสดง ทุกทุกถ้อยคำ เหมือนเธอนั้นพูดกับฉัน
sing tee ter sa-daeng took-took toi kam meuan ter nan poot gap chan
The things that you did, every word you said, similar to what you told me.

แต่ผู้ชายคนนั้น มันไม่ใช่ฉัน
dtae poo chaai kon nan man mai chai chan
But that man, it's not me.

ฉันเหมือนคนไม่มีกำลัง
chan meuan kon mai mee gam-lang
I'm like a weak person.

และหมดแรงจะยืนจะลุกจะเดินไป
lae mot raeng ja yeun ja look ja dern bpai
And no strength to stand, to rise and to walk on..

ฉันเหมือนคนกำลังจะตาย ที่ขาดอากาศจะหายใจ
chan meuan kon gam-lang ja dtaai tee kaat aa-gaat ja haai jai
I'm like a person who's about to die, without air to breath.

ฉันเหมือนคนที่โดนเธอแทงข้างหลัง แล้วมันทะลุถึงหัวใจ
chan meuan kon tee dohn ter taeng kaang lang laew man ta-loo teung hua jai
I'm like a person whom you've betrayed, and you stab through my heart.

เธอจะให้ฉันมีชีวิตต่อไปอย่างไร
ter ja hai chan mee chee-wit dtor bpai yaang rai
How do you expect me to live on...

ไม่มีอีกแล้ว กับเธอ ไม่มีเหลือสักอย่าง...อยากตาย
mai mee eek laew gap ter mai mee leua sak yaang ... yaak dtaai
There's nothing more between you and me, nothing else left... I want to die..

บทบาทของเธอ สิ่งที่เขาทำ
bot baat kong ter sing tee kao tam
The way you acted, things that he did.

ทุกตอนมันเหมือนตอกย้ำ ให้ฉันต้องเสียน้ำตา
took dton man meuan dtok yam hai chan dtong sia nam dtaa
Every part is like as though it's stressing me to cry...

ภาพที่คุ้นเคย ที่ที่คุ้นตา น้ำเสียงที่เธอ
paap tee koon koie tee tee koon dtaa naam siang tee ter
That familiar picture, the familiar place, your voice that

พูดจาท่าทีเหล่านั้น ฉันไม่เคยลืม
poot-jaa taa tee lao nan chan mai koie leum
speaks, that manner.. I never once forget.

สิ่งที่เธอแสดง ทุกทุกถ้อยคำ เหมือนเธอนั้นพูดกับฉัน
sing tee ter sa-daeng took-took toi kam meuan ter nan poot gap chan
The things that you did, every word you said, similar to what you told me.

แต่ผู้ชายคนนั้น มันไม่ใช่ฉัน
dtae poo chaai kon nan man mai chai chan
But that man, it's not me.

ฉันเหมือนคนไม่มีกำลัง
chan meuan kon mai mee gam-lang
I'm like a weak person.

และหมดแรงจะยืนจะลุกจะเดินไป
lae mot raeng ja yeun ja look ja dern bpai
And no strength to stand, to rise and to walk on..

ฉันเหมือนคนกำลังจะตาย ที่ขาดอากาศจะหายใจ
chan meuan kon gam-lang ja dtaai tee kaat aa-gaat ja haai jai
I'm like a person who's about to die, without air to breath.

ฉันเหมือนคนที่โดนเธอแทงข้างหลัง แล้วมันทะลุถึงหัวใจ
chan meuan kon tee dohn ter taeng kaang lang laew man ta-loo teung hua jai
I'm like a person whom you've betrayed, and you stab through my heart.

เธอจะให้ฉันมีชีวิตต่อไปอย่างไร
ter ja hai chan mee chee-wit dtor bpai yaang rai
How do you expect me to live on...

ไม่มีอีกแล้ว กับเธอ ไม่มีเหลือสักอย่าง...อยากตาย
mai mee eek laew gap ter mai mee leua sak yaang ... yaak dtaai
There's nothing more between you and me, nothing else left... I want to die..

เสียใจ แค่ไหน ถ้าอยากรู้ บอกเธอได้คำเดียว...อยากตาย....
sia jai kae nai taa yaak roo bok ter daai kam dieow ... yaak dtaai ...
If you want to know how sad am I, I can tell you one word... I want to die...

Kum Taam Tee Taung Taub
คำถามที่ต้องตอบ

ฉันไม่อยากจะตอบคำถามที่เขาถามกัน
chan mai yaak ja dtop kam taam tee kao taam gan
I don't want to answer the questions that they asked me.

ว่าทำไมเธอไปจากฉันเพราะอะไร
waa tam-mai ter bpai jaak chan pror a-rai
'why did you leave me? why?

รักมากมายใครๆ ก็รู้
rak maak maai krai-krai gor roo
Everybody knows that I love you so much

ทำไมตอนสุดท้าย... ถึงได้เลิกกัน
tam-mai dton soot taai ... teung daai lerk gan
but why in the end we broke up.

พูดตรงๆ มันลืมไปแล้วไม่ได้สนใจ
poot dtrong-dtrong man leum bpai laew mai daai son-jai
To be honest, I already forgot it, I don't care.

หากมันเป็นเวลาเลวร้ายฉันไม่จำ
haak man bpen way-laa leo raai chan mai jam
If it's a terrible time, I won't remember it.

เลือกจะจำแค่เพียงเท่านี้
leuak ja jam kae piang tao nee
I chose to remember only this,

วันเวลาที่ดีกับเธอเท่านั้น...
wan way-laa tee dee gap ter tao nan ...
only the good moments I had with you.

โฮ โว แต่ก่อนมีเธอใกล้ๆ สุขใจแค่ไหน...
hoh woh dtae gon mee ter glai ๆ sook jai kae nai ...
How happy I was when you were beside me.

แต่ก่อนรักกันยังไง เธอกับฉันพบกันที่ไหน
dtae gon rak gan yang ngai ter gap chan pop gan tee nai
How we loved each other in the past, where did we meet.

ถ้าหากเขาถามว่ารักเธอมากแค่ไหน...
taa haak kao taam waa rak ter maak kae nai ...
If they ask me how much I love you,

คือสิ่งที่ฉันอยากตอบ....
keu sing tee chan yaak dtop ....
that's what I want to answer.

วันที่เธอเลิกไปฉันไม่อยากจำ
wan tee ter lerk bpai chan mai yaak jam
I don't want to remember the day that we broke up.

จะเก็บรอยยิ้มของเธอ จะเก็บเธอไว้ในใจ
ja gep roi yim kong ter ja gep ter wai nai jai
I will treasure your smile, keeping it in my heart.

จะจำว่าในครั้งหนึ่งเธอเคยรัก
ja jam waa nai krang neung ter koie rak
I will remember that you once loved me.

จะเก็บความรักของเธอ จะเก็บเอาไว้อย่างนี้
ja gep kwaam rak kong ter ja gep ao wai yaang nee
I will keep your love, keep it like this.

มันมีความหมายเหลือเกิน....โว....โฮว
man mee kwaam maai leua gern .... woh .... hohw
It's so meaningful.

พูดตรงๆ มันลืมไปแล้วไม่ได้สนใจ
poot dtrong-dtrong man leum bpai laew mai daai son-jai
To be honest, I already forgot it, I don't care.

หากมันเป็นเวลาเลวร้ายฉันไม่จำ
haak man bpen way-laa leo raai chan mai jam
If it's a terrible time, I won't remember it.

เลือกจะจำแค่เพียงเท่านี้
leuak ja jam kae piang tao nee
I chose to remember only this,

วันเวลาที่ดีกับเธอเท่านั้น...
wan way-laa tee dee gap ter tao nan ...
only the good moments I had with you.

โฮ โว แต่ก่อนมีเธอใกล้ๆ สุขใจแค่ไหน...
hoh woh dtae gon mee ter glai ๆ sook jai kae nai ...
How happy I was when you were beside me.

แต่ก่อนรักกันยังไง เธอกับฉันพบกันที่ไหน
dtae gon rak gan yang ngai ter gap chan pop gan tee nai
How we loved each other in the past, where did we meet.

ถ้าหากเขาถามว่ารักเธอมากแค่ไหน...
taa haak kao taam waa rak ter maak kae nai ...
If they ask me how much I love you,

ถ้าอยากรู้ว่าทำไม นั่นแหละสิ่งที่ฉันจะตอบคำถาม..โว
taa yaak roo waa tam-mai nan lae sing tee chan ja dtop kam taam .. woh
If they wanted to know why, that's what I'm going to answer.

วันที่เธอเลิกไปฉันไม่อยากจำ
wan tee ter lerk bpai chan mai yaak jam
I don't want to remember the day that we broke up.

Bangkok Love Story...Part 2

2008-03-17T00:49:00.007+08:00

Dear all, pls accept my sincere apologies for not blogging for the longest time. I was tight up with work and other things.

Well, I'm back...whether you like it or not. HAHAHA.

One of the reason I'm back is to tell all of this movie that I watched recently... Bangkok Love Story.. Yes I've finally watched it!!!

Story line is just so-so but what the show was trying to project was extremely touching.

It's about a hitman (Mhek) who fell in love with one of his target, a policeman (Itt). Mhek refused to kill Itt when the ring leader who hired him ordered Mhek to finish the job. A shoot out occurred resulted in Mhek getting shot while he was trying to protect Itt. They escaped. Itt refused to leave Mhek and stayed with him to tend to his wound. Itt later also fell in love with Mhek but Mhek refused to admit his love for Itt. The ring leader kill Mhek's mum for revenge and later Mhek killed the ring leader and was caught by the police. Itt was blinded somehow in the ring leader shoot out scene. Itt waited for Mhek to be released from prison after many many years (they both aged with white hair). The reunion was sweet but extremely short; just when Mhek was about to confess his love for Itt, Mhek was shot dead by a man working for the dead ring leader, just outside the prison gate. After some years, Itt regain his sight and found a mobile he gave Mhek many years ago. Mhek took a picture of himself with the mobile together with a note telling Itt how much he loves him.

Please watch the movie and hopefully you will love the movie as much as I do. My advice...get the DVD cos there's English subtitle.
Warning : there's some gay scenes may be a little too much for the weak hearts. :-P

This is the theme song. Yaak Roo ... Dtae Mai Yaak Taam

This is the trailer.

To Who It May Concern : Eamon "Fuck It"

2007-10-26T04:28:00.000+08:00

See i dont, know why, i liked you so much
I gave you all, of my trust
I told you, i loved you, now thats all down the drain
Ya put me through pain, i wanna let u know that i feel

[chorus:]
Fuck what i said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses, it didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, i dont want you back

Fuck what i said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses it didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, i dont want you back

[verse 2:]
You thought, you could
Keep this shit from me, yeah
Ya burnt bitch, i heard the story
Ya played me, ya even gave him head
Now ya askin for me back
Ya just another hag, look elsewhere
Cuz ya done with me

Fuck what i said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses it didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, i dont want you back

Fuck what i said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses it didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, i dont want you back

Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah
Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah
Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah
Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah

Ya questioned, did i care
You could ask anyone, i even said
Ya were my great one
Now its, over, but i truly mean im sad
It hurt real bad, i cant sweat that, cuz i loved a hoe

Fuck what i said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses it didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, i dont want you back

Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah
Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah
Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah
Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah
[Until the e

Birthday Celebration

2007-10-26T04:14:00.000+08:00

Tonight was a very good evening spent...with a dear friend cum ex colleague. Today is Emily's birthday.

Wasn't planning to spent a long night outside but hey, what can I say...it's my friend's birthday!!! Was only planning to have dinner with Emily and friends but ended up going for a few drinks and ended up at another friend's place.

Cool evening and was indeed very nice to celebrate a birthday for a close friend.

Am at another colleague's place and how I envy that they have their own place; a few close friends staying together, taking care of each other...so touching hor.

Using my colleague's super big flat computer screen. Definitely very cool to play games...so jealous!

Hitting the sack now as I need to wake up early to get ready for another meaningful gathering...the Front Office outing! We are having a chalet; a good get-together after a long, tired and stressful year!

Unplanned OFF Day

2007-10-11T20:31:00.000+08:00

Went to work today and was looking at my schdule and realised I might not have a day off next week as we will be super busy. So I decided to take off today and head home. Anyway, wasn't in the mood to work.

Went to Marina Square with a colleague for a while cos he wanted to get a Blackberry. The shop we went was closed, even at 12pm!!! What time these people start work???

Then decided to head to another branch but didn't know where, thus called my colleague from the Concierge; that's one good thing about working in a hotel, your colleague at Concierge will know most of the answers. Before we head to the next branch, I decided to call and check. Thank GOD I called cos they told us things that was not shown on the papers, we decided to go home.

Reached home, played games (as usual) and my other friend came over to borrow some DVDs.

Classy Food & Comfortable Place

2007-10-10T23:01:00.000+08:00

Went to a "high-class" dinner at Shangri-La Hotel last night; our hotel won one of the award and I was asked to join the dinner last minute. Borrowed a suit from hotel. Dinner was good, in fact very nice. 4 courses and had lots of wine...free mah, so drink all I can but was still trying to "act" class. Eat and drink demurely; aiyo very tiring to pretend someone I'm not!

After that went for supper with Edz and we both had a nice chat at one of his hangout place. Nice and cheap food. Definitely worlds apart from Shangri-La Hotel but was so much comfortable. Will definitely go there again if got the chance.

Got home at about 5am, had a quick shower as I was very very shack. Hit the sack and slept till 5pm today. Woke up and had a lazy day; just played games and did this blog. Heading to dream land again soon.

Bangkok Love Story

2007-10-09T00:56:00.000+08:00

This a clip cum MTV of the latest movie in Thailand called "Bangkok Love Story".
Yet to see the movie but just love the song. You guessed it...it's a GAY love story!

The BITCH is back!!!

2007-10-08T23:56:00.000+08:00

Dear All Fellow Bloggers!!!

Guess WHAT??? The BITCH is back!!! Hahahaha......

Sorry all, haven't been blogging for the longest time. Going some "crisis" in my life past few weeks. Don't worry, the BITCH is fine now (I hope). Was getting myself back to my feet; "losing" my best friend together with some "emo" moments together with some other personal problems... not a happy time and it's definitely ain't easy.

But the old saying always works; TIME will be the cure! And TIME really did cure and hope it's not temporary.

Haven't been to much things these few weeks.

Just a quick "re-cap' of what I have been up to...
Besides work, do home, play games... gone to PS Cafe at Dempsey Rd, with Liah, Norain and Sue, on 1st Oct to celebrate my best friend's birthday cum his new journey in life. Glad to see he's happy.
People!!! If you haven't been to Dempsey Rd, PLSSSSSSSSS go!!! It's really a cool place to chill but if you're looking for good food then that may not be the nicest place. I just loooooove the environment. And if you drive will be a bonus; walking in there may not be a good idea.

Am soooooooooooooo looking forward to next month (exactly 30 days time!!!) cos I'm going "HOME" again!!! This time with my new found travelling-kaki... Edz

p/s : Missed the time travelling with my old kakis (Mat & Carol) but recently the 3 of us have been busy at the different time thus travelling together seemed almost impossible now. BUT we have already plan for January's trip; the same old gang! YIPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!

Missing

2007-09-22T23:13:00.000+08:00

Totally not looking forward to end of this month; it's the last day of work for my best friend...he's leaving for greener pastures. Yes another of my colleague leaving the organisation.

Sad?... Extremely! One less kaki to gossip and share my sorrow with.
Happy?... Of cos! It's a very good opportunity for him and I'm happy for him.

However...
Can't help but to think of ALL the good people and staffs who had left us.
Can't help but to think of the fun times we had.
Can't help but to regret for not treasuring the time we all had.
Can't help but to miss the time we all spent together.
Can't help but to......miss all of them.

That's part of life, isn't it? Only realised what's important when you have lost it.
That's part of life, isn't it? Looking back of your life and hoping to change certain part of it.
Well, that's part of life...

p/s : TG, Helmi, Nick & Norain...there's only the 5 of us left. DON'T YOU DARE LEAVE ME BEHIND HERE......ok?

Tribute to Kaer Azami

2007-08-31T05:02:00.001+08:00

Managed to "steal" these pics of the singer of one of my favourite song......
"Izinku Pergi"

I think he's very cute!!! Don't you think??? ;-P

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Last Midnight but......

2007-08-31T02:01:00.000+08:00

It's my last night and was soooooo looking forward to my 3 off days but just recieved a call my counterpart saying she's not feelng well and she will be seeing a doctor...in short she's not coming to work tomorrow morning, and that means I have to stretch my shift and that also means my 3 off days is somehow cut short!!! *sob*sob*sob*

This is one of the things that make me think WHY I'm still working here??? I totally understand that someone can fall sick and not suitable for work but when it happens and somehow affecting your life, it just pisses me off! I used to be able to stretch for many hours cause I have nothing else better to do after work BUT NOT when I'm off for the next 3 days!!!

On top of that, my best friend is leaving for greener pastures; he's leaving for good. I'm going to lose a very good friend at work who shared my sorrows and happy times and of cos the juicy gossips. I'm sad but at the same time happy for him...it was a good opportunity for him. Sad...and more sad!!!
Good luck girlfriend!!!

Sleeeeeeeeeeeepy Nitezzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

2007-08-30T06:14:00.000+08:00

I had never been sooooooooooooo sleepy during my night shifts before. Fell alseep while doing the audits. What happened???

I wasn't able to sleep during the day; slept at 2pm since my day 1 of my night shift and wake up like 6pm. Normally when I'm doing morning shifts, I'll sleep for about 3hrs or 4hrs and was never this tired...is it the age thingy???

Worse still, I need to fast for at least 8hrs tonight cos I need to go for my FFI (Geez I can't even remember what "FFI" stands for). Anyway, FFI is a medical check-up any BOY (before going for National Service) or any MAN (before finishing National Service or after turning 35yrs old) have to go through. Heard they will check EVERYTHING about you; from blood to pee to poo...I know eeeeeeeeeeewwwwwwwwhhhhhhh!!

I usually need to munch on something whenever I'm sleepy. Tonight, I'm very sleepy but yet I can't munch. SAD!!!

Torn No More

2007-08-29T02:17:00.000+08:00

I totally forgot that one of my travelling "kaki" is going to Bangkok this coming Thursday...1 day before my long weekend off where I was totally in dilema on whether should I go for a short trip or not, remember?

Well her reminder-call came too late as I had already made up my mind on "where" to go... I decided to stay in this miserable small island of Singapore and just log onto my "Battlenet" and battle the Orcs, Nightelves and Humans race the whole 3 days!!!

If anyone reading this blog is not a fan of games you probably didn't know what was that about. For those who are a freak for games, you know what I mean.

That means my next trip to Thailand will be in Nov (*sigh* 2 long months away)...if nothing goes wrong. During my last trip to Thailand in July, I didn't make it to the 4 Face Buddha to pray but hope the Buddha will still shine his good-luck rays on me so my leave will be approved...keeping my fingers crossed... XXXXX XXXXX

Torn Apart

2007-08-28T02:38:00.000+08:00

Hey all, it's been a while since I did my last blog on 13/08/07. GOSH it's been 2 weeks! How times flies!!!

Anyway, you guessed it right...I'm on my night shift again. 1st night to be exact.

I'm on my off this coming Friday for 3 days. I'm torn between to either go for a short trip in KL or just stay home and log onto "Battlenet" on my lappy or check into Rasa Sentosa and enjoy the Sun, Sand, Sea and half naked men or go to Bangkok with the boys from the soccer team...

Going KL is my 1st choice but have to travel up alone and probably spent 3/4 of the day alone (my friend already have plans during the day and he will be going 1 day earlier than me, we only meet at night for parties)...quite boring.

Staying home and play my favourite on-line game is not a bad idea too but...3 days??? A bit too much.

Checking in into Rasa Sentosa...just want to feelin feeling that I'm out of town and in a resort place...hmmmmmmmmm maybe can pick up some cute guys???

Going to Bangkok should be my 1st choice and normally I don't even have to think so hard...but to bunk in with the boys??? Don't think so! I need to eat "Tom-Yam" without having the fear that someone is watching!!! Hahahaha

So I'm totally torn between these choices...*sigh*

Sweet Championship!

2007-08-13T04:40:00.000+08:00

After my night shift, didn't sleep at all and left for Inter-SHA Athletics meet. It's the finals and I must say, I was a little nervous. Nervous cos my hotel's assigned sitting area was just in front of the finishing line. Kept telling myself not to trip and fall no matter what (very un-glamourous) and must definitely finish the run with a VOGUE-attitude face...even if I came in last.

Then my turn to run...my 100m Men Masters (ie:Masters means I no longer can join the young people, I HAVE to compete with people my AGE; 35 and above...sob sob sob). Got down to my knees, ass up and then the gun shot went off. I ran and ran and ran. From the moment I started running, suddenly, I just couldn't hear any cheerings or screamings from the supporters from all hotels. I was so concentrating on the running that I had forgotten to look VOGUE and the thought of me tripping and falling on my face did not even cross my mind. I just wanted to catch up with the 1st runner who was split-second ahead of me.

I came in 2nd!!! I was not disappointed at all cos I didn't even think I could be in top 3 at all. I was so happy!!! The forever-high-spirited Conrad POM POM supported were cheering away! They were just so fantastic! They were cheering from all the way the start of the competition till the end of award presentation. 3 cheers for them!!!
After the race, one of my colleague told me my face look like SHIT! He described how I looked and from that, I pictured my eyes, nose and mouth were "sqaushed" together. Now imagine THAT! Gosh!!!!!! That's really really really UGLY!!!

By noon, the ZzzzzMonster had set in. I was like fighting for my life to keep my eyes open but everything around were just too exciting to miss. Trying to keep myself awake by eating bananas. In fact, I don't think I had so many bananas in my life before...had about 6 or 7. I will surely have no problem going to the toilet tomorrow.

My colleagues caught me cheering for a VERY CUTE opponent of ours, I shall not say his name eventho I managed to find out which department he works as well... not bad huh?. But shall never foget his number, "285"! What can I say??? 1st it's what I call "sportsmenship", 2nd he's just SOOOOOOOO cute!!! Even a few of my female colleagues thinks he's cute. *sigh* maybe should try top get him to join our hotel...hmmmmmm. Oh, he even took off his singlet, showing off his tattoo and firm *** and standing right in front of me. AIYO!!! Can die!!! *winks*

Then came the award presentation. They were giving out awards. The number of times our very close opponent's name mentioned were countless and they usually came in 1st. THAT had indeed dampened our spirits. It was clear to us who had won this year's SHA Athletics......or we thought. Some of our supporters (like my boss) had actually left before the announcement of the overall championship. I didn't blame them cos I, myself, was lying down falling asleep cos I thought there was nothing exciting anymore cos the winner will not be us.

Then the announcement. I think our very strong opponent were very confident they had won, we did as well. Their entire team (athletics and supporters were all crowding around the grand stand). 1st they announced the 3rd placing. We knew it could not be us...and true enough, it wasn't. Then they announced : "the 1st runner-up is......", we didn't hear our hotel's name, it was our opponent's name!!!!!! We started jumping, screaming, cheering (aiya...and all the happy things that you will do when you are happy). We had WON!!!!!!

The fatigue and whatever-Monster had disappeared! I joined in the jumping and screaming. We were thrilled and overwhelmed. I sweared I almost cried...hahahaha.
The feeling was GREAT! It wasn't so much about us winning for our hotel, it was the team spirit. I could tell that ALL the athletics had put in their best as a whole team, and for the whole team. 3 cheers for the athletics!

I'm going to train even harder for next year's Athletic meet cos the taste of winning was just soooooo sweet!

p/s : Fasle, don't be too hard on yourself! You had tried your best and YOU have definitely contributed a lot of points for us to gain back the trophy. Hope those bruises will fade soon. Get well!

ANGRY ANGRY ANGRY!!! Part 2

2007-08-12T00:55:00.000+08:00

Guess what...??? THEY CHECKED IN!!!!!! They actually have the cheek to check in!!!

They called my colleague asking for my boss cos they wanted to highlight to my boss about my attitude...??? I'm very confident to say that I was not rude to them at any time and what's there to complain??? Complain that they did not get what they wanted??? HELLO...!!!!!!

WHAT'S WRONG WITH THESE PEOPLE???!!!

I'm just waiting for my last day of work here and ALL these guests will get it BIG TIME from me!!!

And also those guests who are not staying in the hotel but yet wanted to complain about taxi queues!!! Let me repeat myself..."THE PRIORITY WILL BE GIVEN TO GUESTS STAYING IN HOUSE". Don't give me the crap about : "I will stay here in future but looking at your service I think I'll re-consider". SHAMELESS!!!

And of cos, guest who did not get their preferred room. PLS READ "REQUESTS ARE SUBJECTED TO AVAILIBILITY"..."REQUESTS" means wished for or hoped for......! NOT...I repeat NOT confirmed room type!!!

Waiting for my last day of work!

ANGRY ANGRY ANGRY!!!

2007-08-11T01:23:00.000+08:00

I'm so pissssssssed! Recieved a call from a cheapo Singaporean and asked if she can check in at 3am or 4am and check out 2 days later but pay only for 1 night!!!!????
Where she get the logic from??????

She and her cheapo BF just does not understand that check in time is at 2pm and if check in at 3am or 4am will consider another night charge!!!

My advice to people who does not know check in procedure, pls do your homework 1st before embarassing yourself!!! And if YOU do not have $$$, pls go to Hotel 81!!! There, you pay for the same amount, you get to stay 3 nights!!!

p/s : they still have to cheek to threaten to complain about me...???!!! DAH...

Peacemaker

2007-08-07T03:40:00.000+08:00

A tribute to my favourite Thai Duo Band : Peacemaker

Yoo Yarng Ngao Ngao
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Gwar Jah Bork Ruk
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Chung Mai Roo Arai Bahng Luhy
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Kor Arng
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Suan Gern
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Rueng Bon Tieng
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Ngow
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Jon Gwah Far Ja Mee Way Lah
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Kit Tueng
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Kaer : Izinku Pergi

2007-08-05T22:29:00.001+08:00

I was introduced to this song by Liah who was introduced by Norain. I fell in love with the song almost immediately. It's a very sad song but gorgeous MTV!

THE Lyrics
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Sinaran mata
Cerita segalanya
Duka lara terpendam
Memori semalam

Tinggal segala cinta
Tiada kembalinya
Abadi kasih kita
Kau bawa bersama

Mimpi indah mekar
Saat cinta bersemi
Sedetik asmara syurga
Selamanya

* Chorus
Pergilah rinduku
Hilangkan dirimu
Tak sanggup menanggung
Derita di kalbuku

Pergilah sayangku
Bermula semula
Semangat cintaku
Membara kerana dia
Tiada niatku

Tersemat dijiwa
Setia bersamanya
Cinta murni berdua
Beribu tahunnya

Mimpi indah mekar
Saat cinta bersemi
Sedetik asmara syurga selamanya..

Repeat Chorus: *

Maafkan daku duhai kasih
Izinkan Ku Pergi…

Palmy : Kwarm Jeb Puad

2007-08-05T22:13:00.000+08:00

Check out this song......and the BOTAK!!!!!! AIYO!!!!!! Can die!!!!!!

39th...Going 40th

2007-07-20T01:39:00.000+08:00

Counting down to my last few hours for this round of night shift and then 2 more days to "HEAVEN"!

I may sound excited about this up-coming trip to Pattaya, but actual fact I'm not this time. The only reason I'm excited is I'm getting away from work and family......EVERYTHING about Singapore!

Ususally 1 week before my trips, I will be soooooo excited. However I don't really know what happen this time......just not too keen. Or maybe I have gotten sick of the place? Have been there at least 3 times a year, and for the last 13 years! That's 39 times at least!!!

OH MY GOD!!! 39 times!!!!!! That makes this trip 40th!......at least!

I think I shall make this my last trip. Need to save money for my house. I told my friends the same thing 2 years ago that that shall be my last trip cos I wanted to save money and when I turn 35, I can buy a house immediately...but that did not materialise. So I shall not mention to my friends again but to action on it.

I think buying a house is a good investment. Especially when you are still staying with your parents and the house is co-own by your brother and parents. In the event my parents are no longer around (touched wood!), where will I stay if my brother decided to kick me out of the house? And having my own house I can set my own rules...can go home late, can have party once in a while, can invite friends over, can design and paint whatever colour I want for my rooms...how cool!

Ok that's it!!! I shall work towards that! I will not even wait to the new year and tell myself it's a New Year's resolution! I shall start NOW to plan!

Victoria Secret's Fashion Show

2007-07-17T06:53:00.000+08:00

This is for all the girlie girls, the "ABC" men and serve as a motivation for some......and, of cos, a SALUTE to Victoria Secret's. I saw the 2006 show on TV and......MY GOD! I fell in love with the show instantly! Classy, vogue, grand, gorgeous, fun, colourful, beautiful, tasteful...and more! For those who missed it, plssssss go see it!

1st Night

2007-07-17T05:23:00.000+08:00

Hey it's me again! Once again, I'm writing my blogg during my night shift. I just realised I only write my bloggs when I'm on night shift. Even tho I don't seemed to have anything to do during day shifts, I just can't find the time to write my bloggs...??? How so leh???
Answer : I'm just lazy lah!

I'm so tired tonight cos I woke up early to do training. Thank GOD Helmi is with me tonight, at least got someone to talk to to keep myself awake.

Soooo looking forward to my off days after this round of night shift; reason? I'm going for a holiday!!! Finally!!! Another get-a-way from everything!!! CAN"T WAIT!!! However, I need to RUN on the day I'm flying. See, I'm involve in this inter-Hotel sports day, doing 3 events altogether and I heard my last events is always the last event of the day. That means I need to fly to airport and not RUN! OH NO!!!

I also started to realise my trips is what I look forward to every 2 or 3 months...my very short get-a-way.

Let me just sumarise my whole week's event...well, it won't be too difficult.
- one of the day last week...went to see Harry Porter & the Order of the Phoenix.
Boring!!! It was such a disappointment! Still remembered Norain, Sadiq and me were
complaining after the show. Norain actually wanted to spend $30 for the show to get those
cosy seats where you can lay down. THANK GOD we didn't, or else the 3 of us will be adding
on to the sound effect of the show......snoring away! Hahaha
- then the rest of the week were............work, home, sleep, then the routine repeats itself!

Movie Freaks

2007-07-08T06:24:00.000+08:00

This is for all the movie freaks out there!

For You Faizie!

2007-07-08T04:53:00.000+08:00

This is specially for my best friend......Faizie your dream boys!

Nasty Night!

2007-07-08T00:51:00.000+08:00

My last blogg was about my pathetic life; nothing exciting......me and my big mouth!

Just after sending out that blogg, I had a consecutive 3 cases; 1st, a guest was locked in his own room, and we had to "break" down the door to "rescue" him. 2nd, a guest had a heart problem in the middle of the night, well, I should say in the wee hours (4am!) and had to be rushed to the hospital in an ambulance. Last, I was told a guest had missed his wake up call.

My counter parts and myself always believed that if we say it will be a smooth day/night, it will turn out NASTY! Well, last night says it all!!!

Daily Routine

2007-07-07T02:25:00.000+08:00

Haven't been blogging for a while......in fact haven't been doing much with my life recently.

I was just thinking, is this my LIFE??? Nothing???

My usual daily routine; wake up, shower, go to work, go home, shower, watch TV, go to sleep, then the cycle repeats itself. Occasionally there will be dinner or coffee with friends.

Is that all my life about??? Anyone having the same thought? Is there anything else we can do? But I'll be too beat for anything after a long day at work; stressed out and "brain-dead"!

Thinking about it, I can't help to feel sad for myself; how pathetic my life can be.

I MUST DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT!

Suria Gives Me Fever

2007-06-24T05:47:00.000+08:00

This is for all the cute Abangs...yummy-licious! My votes go to Kassreaal Aliff Kaswan. My friend, Liah, said he can't sing......as if I care??? It's a reality singing competition show, and being a reality...it's never fair and the good looking ones always have lotssssss of votes even they can't sing that well. Liah...eat your heart out!!! Hahaha

Cutie No. 1

Cutie No. 2

My Ultimate CUTIE!!! KASSREEAL!!! "Wo yong yuan zhi chi ni!!!"

Cutie No. 4

Cutie No. 5

Cutie No. 2...again

My Ultimate Vote goes to......Kassreeal Aliff Kaswan!

Yummy-Suck-ker-licous......aiyo this pic can just kill me...............with my legs WIDE open!!!!!!

Cutie No. 3 again...but he looks better here

Yummy-suck-ker-licous again!!!!! *slurp*

And of cos!!! My Favourite Suria actor, Haizad Imran...apart from Aaron Aziz.... they are both YUMMY-LICKING-FINGER-SUCK-KER-GOODA-LICIOUS!!!!............*yum*yum*slurp*slurp*

Imaginary Friend

2007-06-24T03:39:00.000+08:00

Just finished my night auditing. This round of night shift is a little scary.

See, about 2 weeks ago, my niece was in my room "chatting" with me; she's coming to 5 soon and as you know kids this young can hardly pronounce words thus I usually just entertain her by saying "yes", "no", "ya", "mmm" and so on and not understanding most of her speech.

Then suddenly she said, "Jie Jie go already"; "Jie Jie" means elder sister in Mandarin. At first I thought she meant my neighbour's daughter who's much older than my niece. However, I realised from my room, we were not able to see the main entrance of the house and definitely not anyone at the corridor. So I asked my little niece who she meant. She said once again "Jie Jie go already", this time pointing towards my room's door or maybe her room which was facing mine.

By now, I'm having a little goosebumps. I asked her "where got Jie Jie?". She said "There...Jie Jie going to my room already." and in a split second, she turn her vision away from the door and continued our "conversation" like she had not mentioned anything about "Jie Jie".

My hair on every parts of my body STAND!!!......and I mean EVERY parts of my body!!!

Just a few days ago, something similar happened. I was preparing to go to work and was doing my hair in the kitchen. She came out from her room and we were "chatting" away...again. All of a sudden she ran to the living room and back to the kitchen, giggling away...like she was having fun. I usually like to call her "crazy girl" when she does stupid things like that, so I called out to her... "you crazy ah?".

Again, she said something that made my hair on EVERY parts of my body stand; "I'm playing with my friend". Then she ran to the living room and back again doing the same thing...giggling away.

Keeping a straight face and trying to act I'm the last person to be bothered about such things, I took the courage (or whats left in me), I asked my niece, loudly; "you crazy ah, where got friend?". She then pointed to the...er the space next to her and said "there, my friend." Again, she ran to the living room but this time to her room...still giggling away.

Many people believe kids at a certain age have imaginary friends but some believe kids at a certain age are able to see "things" adults can't.

So the "Jie Jie" and my niece's "friend" are imaginary?

Thinking of the above, my round of night shift this time is a little scarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrry!

23 June 2007

2007-06-24T01:08:00.000+08:00

Back to night shift again! This time only doing 2 nights...YIPEE!!!

Heard we have a crazy lady staying in house with us...OH GOSH!!! Hope she don't go crazy on my shift! Then again, she's staying for 14 nights, anything can happen on any shift!!! Can I ask her to move out??? Maybe to Woodbridge Hospital??? Anyway she's in Singapore for medical purposes......so maybe Woodbridge is a better place for her to stay...?

Recently I have a new resolution, that is not to whine and be positive towards life, but with such people around (guests and staff), can I really be a positive person and not to whine? I wonder.

Is GOD (my 4 face Buddha) testing me?

New Me

2007-06-19T20:51:00.000+08:00

After writing 2 bloggs before this, I realised my perspect in life had somehow changed a bit (just a little bit)....:-p

I won't say it had changed me completely but I was somehow happier than before. I used to whine a lot; about life, about work and about not having what I wanted.

I truly hope it's not a passing phase of my life but it will stay and make me a better person.

I'm gonna be this person who's contented with life (most part of it...hehehe), I'm gonna whine as little as possible......but don't test my patience lah......hahahaha

"Xiao Long Bao"

2007-06-18T21:26:00.001+08:00

Went to Tampines to have lunch with a friend. It's been a long time since I had "Xiao Long Bao", it was soooooooo yummy. We had it at a restuarant well known for their "Xiao Long Bao", but I somehow forgot the name...??? Must be the age...hahaha

Then when to a cafe for drinks; my friend had a tea while I decided to pamper myself, I had what they call "Monkey Business Smoothie". Well if you guessed it was banana smoothie then you are right. It was just ok.

Had a good chat with my friend even though he was supposed to be working; can you imagine that!!! He's having a 1 and a half hour lunch with me, then we had coffee for almost an hour. Then he told me he's actually working while having his lunch break with me......??? Can I work in that company......please......! :-p

After a wonderful afternoon, I went back to my work place to do some workout. It was a short workout but was fruitful......can feel my arms hurting. Guess it will be worse when I wakes up tomorrow...... ouch............

I'm so not looking forward to work tomorrow...it's gonna be a busy day!!! Or busy week rather!!!

Life Goes On...

2007-06-18T00:14:00.000+08:00

I was reading two bloggs posted of the "crazy-but-cool-bloggers", one of them is dedicated to the department I'm working, feeling for all of us due to shortage of manpower. The other talks about something she learnt from the movie "Fantastic 4"; "We Have A Choice!"

Then I realised these 2 bloggs somehow "interlinked"; are we gonna feel sad for ourselves when there's a situation of any kind or do we choose to look at the other end of the tunnel where there's light?

See, I've been feeling very very (and I meant "very") down recently due to some "issues". I have not been the happiest person on earth. But then again, who will be the HAPPIEST person on earth??? Or who will be SADDEST person on earth?
Answer : No One!!!!!!

There's always someone happier than you... and there's always someone more sad than you.

If we choose to feel sad for ourselves when we are depressed, then we will always be this sad person looking at the darker side of life, and we will never be happy. There's bound to be things dos not go according to what we have planned, do we choose to feel sad or do "We Have A Choice?" to look for the light?

My choice : To look for the light!

p/s : this is for all my FRIENDS who had stood by me and showed their concern when I was not
the BITCHY person I was for the last few days!

THE BITCH IS BACK!!!!!!

The Truth Hurts......real BAD

2007-06-16T08:49:00.000+08:00

I was trying not to think of the "issue" I had a few days ago, and I was getting over it...or I thought!

Today, a friend told me something regarding it and it felt like the pain is doubled than what I was feeling the 1st time! I don't blame the friend cos he was not aware of the "issue" at all, no one did except my best friend.

GODDDDDDDDDDD!!!!!! I'm back to the beginning......in fact, worst! I can feel my heart pounding really really hard now!

I always said to people, the truth hurts...... and it's really really hurting (real bad) right now!

12 June 2007

2007-06-12T20:45:00.000+08:00

Had quite a smooth day at work even tho we are down by 1 staff. Guess I was a bit harsh on the team even they did quite a good job; sorry guys.

Had a good meeting with my "Hello-Kitties". But think it could be a more fruitful meeting if certain "someone" is not there? ;-)
Gurls, you had done very well and keep up the good work!!! :-)

p/s: Trying to forget what happen but it keeps flashing across my mind. GOD!!! END THIS!!! :-(

11 June 2007

2007-06-11T21:45:00.000+08:00

After work, went for training. I'm preparing for SHA athletics in Aug. This is my very 1st time going for the training for this year; all other athletics from my Hotel had already started training since 2 weeks ago.

It was tough but I really needed to do this; I really needed to start training to get rid of the flabby tummy of mine, and Faizal told me it's the best medicine for what I'm going through now. Faizie, thanks! It really worked!!! I'm feeling much better but "it's" still linger in my head. Guess time will washed "it" away sooner or later.

I've made a promised to myself, from today onwards I'm going to start training myself, with the help of Fasle Jr; he's going to be my personal trainer. I'm going to build some NICEEEE chest and arms...hopefully nice abs... hehehe

After reaching home, did some more sit-ups and push-ups...I'm not going to stop till I succeed!!!

Faizie, once again thanks for being there, thanks for being my best friend. What am I going to do without you? Luv Ya!!!
Liah, thank you as well for the sms. Really appreciate it and thanks for not pushing me to tell you.

Going off now to do some more sit-ups and push-ups.

Lazy Saturday

2007-06-10T20:32:00.000+08:00

Used my 1 night comp stay voucher and checked into the Hotel for 1 night last night.

Met up with Selamat and Carol for dinner. Selamat drove us to East Coast hawker center to have the well-known satay. I had the mee goreng but it was so spicy thus only managed to finish half of it.

Then went to a light shop in Geylang as Selamat wanted to pick the lights for his new house. He found a few which are of Balinese concept. Think he's getting them.

Then proceeded back to the Hotel but on the way we bought the well-known Geylang soya beancurd...yummy!!!!!!

Went back to the hotel.

Carol brought a few DVD. I wanted to stay up and watch the DVD with the both of them but I was too tired and fell asleep on the sofa. Woke up later as Carol and Selamat wanted to go home. Then I realised I was asleep for almost 2hrs. :-P
Selamat said I also snored. :-P

p/s: thinking of something Faizal told me and I'm very affected by it.
GOSH! I didn't know it was such a big deal to me.
Faizie......I'm so down. :-(

OFF DAY

2007-06-09T03:35:00.000+08:00

I'll be officially on OFF in exactly 4hrs and 25mins!

Even though, it was not a long week, I was so looking forward to my OFF day! Cos I'm checking into the Hotel! Not that I'm so amazed and in love with the place I work but thinking of lazing in a very soft and comfortable bed and free from my forever-nagging parents (oops)......aiyo so shiok!!!!!!

I'm inviting my 2 very dear friends, Carol and Selamat, to join me. If you remembered, they are my very dear friends whom I called "travelling-kakis", mentioned in my very 1st blog. They met up last night, while I was sleeping, to discuss what to do after check in. They suggested to go to Sentosa or Mount Faber, probably to enjoy some drinks and the night scenery of Sentosa. I love the idea cos the last time 3 of us sat and drink in Singapore was so long ago; usually we just have dinner and drink in some coffee places, seldom drink in clubs or pubs. However I'm trying to save money for my next trip (in July) and hopefully save a little for my new house-to-come leh.... And I know myself very well; if I start to drink, it will be very difficult for me to stop, and that means spending a fortune......Anyway shall see when we meet up tomorrow.

House and Home

2007-06-08T23:54:00.001+08:00

I was at the smoking bay just a few minutes ago and heard 2 colleagues teasing and bitching at one and other.

Then 1 of them asked the other to leave...jokingly. He said "Go back, this is not your House, this is your Home!".

Hey! I can relate to that!!! To me, where I lived is just a House; where I sleep and eat, but here (my workplace) is my Home; where my friends are, where I can confide and find comfort in the arms of my few Good Friends. That's why I'm blogging it down...to remind myself.

Sound sad? Not at all...to me!!!

p/s : must get my own House where I can call it Home! ;-)

Not-So-Beautiful Liar

2007-06-08T05:49:00.000+08:00

Took me a whole full day to decide whether to post this blogg or not. Not very comfortable people reading/seeing "the other side" of me. Still, I decided to publish......

Just saw the tag-line on someone's MSN and it reads ".......... Lonely .........."

Suddenly "THE" question flashes across my mind; "what if that person wants to patch things back?" ...was it a hint for a patch back?

The answer to that question is simply a NO! I don't even need a second to think...in fact I don't even need to think about it at all!!!

The reason gave when we broke up was "we are not compatible", "you are not what I'm looking for" and a whole bunch of "I want this" and "I want that"......oh by the way, the reasons given all not from me.

Well, when we were together, it's all about what that person wants; when that person wants to meet, when that person don't want to meet, what type of bags that person wants me to carry, what type of bags that person don't want me to carry, what that person wants me to wear and what not to wear, how that person wants me to talk, sit, walk, what movies that person wants to watch, when to have sex and on and on and on...... Not once I was asked what I want!

The day we broke up, it's what he WANTED again, and the reason... the few mentioned above in bold.

Can you really know if 2 people are compatible in just 1 month?
Can a relationship last if everything is based only on 1 party?
To add, can a relationship last if only 1 party is giving and not recieving?
It's not even a mutiply choice question where you can choose, the answer is only a simple "NO"!

I can't help but to think the reasons given for the break up were all nothing but "BULLSHIT". To be honest, I already know it's bullshit cos it seemed that the most commonly used excuse for breakups is "we are not compatible". Why people just can't be honest??? To lie so as not to hurt the other party? To lie so it will not be a painful breakup? To lie so as to make others think one have put in a lot of thoughts before the breakup? That, one have tried every means to salvage the relationship but there's no more reasons to give after much thoughts, thus the decision from the breakup? Hmmmmmmmm......

I shall keep to my belief in Life...never regret, never look back!

Good Things Never Last...Part 2

2007-06-08T03:02:00.000+08:00

This is specially dedicated to a very good friend who had just left us...Emily! Emily had left the organisation...truly hope she will have a good job offer.

I had known Emily since my day 1 in the current place I'm working...that's exactly 5 yrs 9 months and 7 days! Not a very long time but long even to know someone well. Emily is always there to lend a ear when you needed one, she had always given good advises if you needed some, she's a simple person who wanted nothing but pure friendships, always caring towards others and one of the great colleague whom anyone can depend on/work with. I'm sure she's very well-liked among friends/colleagues.

However I guess she felt she was not appreciated. Hey Ah Em, you knew there's a lot of good friends here had always supported and appreciate you...right? I'm one of them... :-)

Well, like the saying goes, good things never last! It seems like just yesterday we met each other and today, it's the time to say "goodbye"!

We took a few photos together...Emily and me, then with Liah. And as usual, the 3 of us gossip a little bit. She was trying very hard to be strong, controlling very well not to cry. She didn't want to give us the "last" hug" when she was leaving; maybe she knew we will cross each other path again some day or maybe she knew she will definitely burst out crying if she were to hold anyone of us.

All of a sudden, it occurred to me, workplace will never be the same without Emily!!! I felt a certain sense of "loss" now. Guess another saying is true, you will never appreciate something/someone until it/he/she is gone.

Emily!!! Take care & all the best!!! Must keep in touch!!!

Needed Another Break!

2007-06-07T02:55:00.000+08:00

Oh GOSH!!!!!! I need another holiday!!!!!!

All of a sudden, I need to get away from Singapore, get away from work and, of cos, get away from family...in short, get away from everything and everyone!!!!!!

I'm sure you have experienced the same before; you just need to "disappear" from everyone you know for a short while. You kind of "got sick" of the people you know, doing the same thing everyday over and over again. You just want to see something new for a change, to do something else other than your routine job, to see/meet people who are unfamiliar, not to hear from people you know for a while.

Well, "that" day had just arrived for me...again! I need to get away from EVERYTHING!!!!!!

My next trip will be......OH MY GOD!!!......end of next month!!!!!! Still so far away!!!!!! *sob*sob*sob*

Night Shift

2007-06-06T02:35:00.000+08:00

I'm doing night shift again...this time not as a Duty Manager (DM) but Assistant Manager (AM). GOSH!!!!!! It's been 3yrs since I last did night shift as a AM.

Felt different as I'm used to telling people what time to close the system, but the next 4 nights I'll recieve instructions from my counter-part when to shut the system.

Hope I still remember what to do and what to look out for as a night AM.
Actually we almost forgot do a few things, but thanked GOD, we realised before it was too late.

Good to know the night team is a GREAT team to work with. All are good workers, jokers and team players. Whewwwwww......

All of a sudden, I remembered a staff who had just left us not long ago. Let's not mentioned names. He/she was quite a dread to work with, always got mistakes; not that I don't make mistakes but I learnt and usually don't repeat my mistakes. However he/she will always have the same mistakes and always have reasons to cover for himself/herself; busy with guests' enquries, busy with check ins and on and on and on...Never seemed to learn anything after 2yrs with us (oops...maybe some people already know who I'm talking about...?) There was once when I told he/her off, he/her actually accused me of targetting her......dah??? Well he/she is now working in something which I think he/she can excel in, in fact, I think he/she is more suitable for that job rather than Hotel industries. I didn't get to tell he/she anything when he/she left but I actually did wish he/she all the best (in silent).
...see after all, I'm a nice person deep inside...hahahahaha

Good Things Never Last

2007-06-05T03:37:00.000+08:00

Today, another 2 friends at work had left the organisation; Sandra, who had finished her 2yrs attachment (it seemed like just last week she joined us as a trainee), & Alfie who had left us for better offer (feel happy for him cos it was a good choice).

Before that were Daphne and Zaine...both left for brighter future. Then Suelyn, who is still in the same building but different area. Soon will be Emily......

The same question alway pops out my head when friends I know leaves; "Who is next?" and there's so many people talks about leaving...including me.

I have been working with these people for a long time; some since I joined the company, and others, since they joined the company. Sad but happy at the same time... SAD cos work place will definitely not be the same without them...HAPPY cos they had left HELL...hahahaha

I had been thinking : "What if I leave?"
- Will I be able to survive outside life?
- Will I be able to find good friends like I have at the current working place?
- Will I be able to adapt to other working style as I'm so used to mine right now?
- Will I not be facing the same problems/worries I'm facing now?
- Will I have to work double or triple hard?
- and ultimately... Will I be happier???

After asking myself all these questions over and over again, I know the only answer I have is "if you never try, you will never know." TRUE! However am I ready to take that leap?

I wished sometimes I will be decisive and daring enough to try anything, but sadly I was never that kind of person. In fact, I'm the direct opposite...indecisive and always too scared to try new things.

I just realised how solem and serious this blog had become. Ok ok I shall stop here.

p/s: NOT looking forward to my night shift tonight! :-(

Friends or "Friends"

2007-06-04T11:48:00.000+08:00

Hates people who are "double headed snakes"; says/do 1 thing infront of you but another behind your back. Totally no respect for such people!

Sad to say, I know a few people who are like that in my circle of "Friends" and it's more sad to say, I've "caught" them doing their "thing"! It was just a split second (and I mean SPLIT second), they just did their "thing" when you had JUST turn your back at them...

It's even worse when you treat them as friends but guess I was wrong. I used to think the word "Friend" means someone who will be there whenever you need them and lend a ear be it when you are down or at joy.

Well that thinking will have to change, for now I have to tell myself that "Friend" means when you are very CERTAIN and SURE that he/she will be that person to tell you the truth RIGHT IN FRONT of you, even it was nothing pleasant to hear. A "Friend" will also be the one NOT jump to conclusions when he/she hear someone else telling he/she about what you've said but to verify with you. A "Friend" will also not put you down to make he/she looks better infront of other people or to get closer to the other groups of "Friend". A "Friend" DEFINITELY will not make use/get close to you ONLY whenever he/she needed your help!

After writting the above, I somehow felt guity of some points I made, but like I said, such thinking will change and I DEFINITELY will not fall into the caterory of the above again!

New Wheels

2007-06-02T10:38:00.000+08:00

I was having my off day yesterday, it was another boring day.

Selamat called and invited me to his new house which is still under renovation. We are gonna be neighbours soon!!! I'm sure his house will be very nicely renovated! His house is not very big, but it was just nice for him and his mother. You should see his room, HUGE!!! It's 2 rooms together, without the wall!!!

He also gave a big surprise! He called me from under my block and asked me to proceed downstairs. I was trying to locate him at the motorbike parking lot cos he's a "mina-motor"! Or should I say "he was"! Then, all of a sudden, a car stopped infront of me. I first thought which asshole so rude, knowing I was about to cross the parking space, this person just stopped right infront of me. Then I thought, maybe someone gorgeous just wanted to say hi.....hahahahahahaha... When I looked into the car, there Selamat was, behind the wheels! He just bought the car!!!!!! WOW!!!!!!

After viewing the house, we then went for dinner. Had mee goreng near my ex-kindergarden; it was really very weird to see the kindergarden I went to almost 30yrs ago (oops...I suddenly feels so OLD!!!).

Went home after that and I, once again, glued to my X-Box! Didn't managed to sleep till 3am......

Wonderful Last Night

2007-05-31T12:24:00.000+08:00

Met up with Sadiq & Daniel after work. Went to do a little shopping cos we were helping Daniel to save on the ERP charges as it was only 6pm. Bought a pair of Nike running shoes. Tried the pair that I was eyeing for a long time but ended up buying another pair (but same design, different colour); I then realised how fast a person can change their mind over things.

Waited for Suelyn outside the Hotel so she can "finish her gossips at work". She mentioned 15mins......then, once again, I realised waiting for someone for 15mins seems like 25mins...or did we really waited for 25mins???....hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm :-P

After "ECP time", Daniel drove the 3 of us to Novena Square to met Liah.

1st went to Pasta Mania for dinner. We were about to enter the restuarant and realised there was a big group of noisy, irritating and noisy (did I mention that already) college girls were about to place their ugly school bags (and I mean UGLY) on 2 big tables (there's about 15 of them) and were about to queue to make their order. Upon seeing that, the 4 of us quickly threw our GORGEOUS bags on an empty table and dashed for the order counter. Of cos, being fast and smart (some called it "very Singaporean"), we were the 1st in queue, before the NOISY college girls came strolled in 1 by 1 and stand behind us. Did I mention they were NOISY? If I did, then I actually meant VERY NOISY!!!!

After taking our own sweet time ordering, we were trying to squeeze thru the bunch of NOISY girls to get back to our seatd. 1 of the VERY NOISY girls said something out when we walked passed them; "the queue is finally moving!". Well, "automatically" my mouth opened and I bitched back, "if you move, the queue will move!". Don't blame me, it was my natural instinct; God's gift!

Food was not fantastic, but just ok; maybe b'cos of the NOISY girls, they were still making lots of noise.

We then decided to go for coffee and relaxed. Proceeded to Starbucks, Sadiq's & Daniel's favourite hang out place. I must say, it's very cosy. I didn't want to move from the leather sofa seats after placing my butt comfortably on the cool leather surface.

The counter girl con me into buying the brownies, saying it's VERY good; in her actual words "you must try, it's VERRRYY good!". So I bought, I ate and I regretted! Nah, it wasn't her fault. Maybe she was just doing her job. Maybe she liked it and I don't. Maybe she had bad taste on food. But 1 thing for sure, I DON'T LIKE BROWNIES!!!

We were joking and joking and joking away. Had lots of fun making fun of Liah. Liah and me were supposed to share a taxi home but she changed her mind last minute to catch a movie with Sadiq. Well she just wanted to avoid me so I don't have the chance to ask her the ULTIMATE question...sorry guys, only the 4 of us knows that question. :-P

I also learnt something new from Sadiq..."TIGER PRAWN"!

Till next time...

Singapore Next Top Model?

2007-05-31T00:31:00.000+08:00

This blog is specially dedicated to my little niece. She's 5 this year, half Filipino half chinese and love to pose for cameras.

Posing for L.V.?

Posing for Fendi?

Posing for Gucci?

Posing for Guess?

Posing for Prada?

Posing for Burberry?

Posing for Armani?

Posing for Mac?

Lazy BITCH .........part 2

2007-05-17T22:51:00.000+08:00

Didn't blog again for the past few days...never seemed to like something for more than few days; that's me! :-P

Well haven't done much things for the past few days anyway.

Was downloading more songs to my Ipod; not that I can listen to my 2200+ songs in 1 day but just can't help to keep downloading. Came across Elliot Yamin (last session competitor from American Idol who didn't win) and guess what!!! He released his solo album!!! So can't help but to download! Hey people, listen to his songs, not bad!

Well that's all for tonight! Hitting the sack soon......after downloading a few more songs. :-P

Lazy BITCH!

2007-05-12T22:45:00.000+08:00

Haven't been blogging for so many days!!! I'm such a lazy BITCH!!!
On the 1st day, I must say I was feeling somehow "guilty" cos I told myself before that I will blog everyday when I started but I gave myself the excuse of "I'm too tired lah, I'll do it tomorrow." Then on the 2nd day (yesterday), I'm still "tired" and I said the same thing on the 3rd day, and these went on for...... aiyo so many days!! So I told myself I MUST BLOG today, even I have to hide behind my back office to do it. Hahaha

I have friends who are sports franatic. They will complained when they don't exercise for 1 day saying they feel guilty or feel uneasy, I always find that weird, always asking myself "How can one feel guilty when one gets to rest and not further "stressed" their body?", shouldn't one be happy? Now I know how they feel cos I felt almost like that for breaking a promise I promised myself, and not doing something that I was so thrill about... BLOGGING.

Anyway...like Helmi mentioned in his blog, I've been doing lots of retail therapy...in fact, too much!!!!!! But I'm not regretting it. However 1 thing is, they are for my computer and not exactly for myself. My pc is having some probs so I thought buying an external drive and a virus scan can help....I was wrong!!! The probs still persist. How sad!

Having Helmi attached to me to do his cross-training as a Duty Manager. Hope I am a good teacher and teach him what he needs to know so he will be equipped with the "ammos". But he's doing very well so far! He had encountered so many different situations that a normal DM will encounter in a month or 2. He's VERY stressed up now but I'm sure he's gonna be another cool DM to work with!!!

Also jokingly told him to shower with flowers to ward off the bad luck....
maybe it's me who should do it??!! Had never see so many cases in 1 week in 1 shift!!! :-P

Btw...good be to BACK!!!!!
p/s : pics are still on the way!!!!! :-P

My Latest Gadget / Nikon Coolpix S9

2007-05-02T21:38:00.000+08:00

FINALLY!!! Bought my own digital camera! So excited!!!

After my night shift yesterday, met up with my colleague, Helmi who was on his off days and did a "little" shopping. Had always wanted to get my own digital camera. Thanks to Helmi's help and got the Nikon Coolpix S9 and a bunch of freebies; Helmi was like, asking the sales person, is this free and can that be given free...and so on. In the end we got quite a good deal, or that's what we thought. Out of the bunch of freebies, there was a CDRom which Helmi was very certain that was very useful. However, we were not able to download the programme cos the serial number given was wrong (well, good things don't come free)! Despite that, I'm still very excited about my new cam!!! And thanks to Helmi for his re-commendation! Now I can start taking pictures and download to my Blog! Watch out people out there, I'll go snap snap snap at you very soon. Hahaha....

Amazing Race

2007-05-01T00:24:00.000+08:00

Watched the Amazing Race. The 2 "Queens" didn't make it to the top 3, how sad! But they were so relaxed and cool about it. Can see that they were sad and disappointed (I will be too) cos they have come this far!!! They were also so sweet cos they mentioned they wanted the Cousins team to win this race...the $1 million!!!

Hmmm...I can't help but to wonder what will it be like if I were to be in the Asia's version of Amazing Race with my best friend, Faizal...?
Imagine... 2 bitchy, campy guys cursing and swearing for all the tough tasks we have to complete.
We properly will also waste a lot of time cos we'll be so busy checking out the cute guys in the various parts of the world and forgotten that we have to complete the given tasks...hahahaha
Faizy...can you imagine that???
But then again, Asia Amazing Race can only take 1 airline (AirAsia?). The teams doesn't have much choices, they can only take Airasia! Not like America's version, they can choice whichever flight they want, as long as the flight takes them to the destination, in the shortest time!

Anyway, I realised that at the end of every episode, before a certain team gets eliminated, they will show the last 2 teams fighting to find the way to the "Next Pitch Stop". They will always show 1 team looks lost and the other team was so confident in getting to the stop, however, at the end, it's the team that looks lost WINS!!! Did you realise that???

p/s: must remind myself to upload my pictures!

My Good Friends and My Favourite Place on Earth

2007-04-30T04:40:00.000+08:00

I'm back with my 3rd Blog!!!

First would like to thank my FRIENDS for their comments, encouragements and the very warm welcome on my 1st Blog! Pls keep the comments coming!
I must say "IT'S SOOOOOO FUN BLOGGING!" hehehe...

My BEST friend, Faizal, is currently fulfilling his dreams...travelling Europe! He's on his well deserved holiday; 18 DAYS IN EUROPE!!! Recieved a sms from him 2 nights ago telling me he's in Oslo. He saw and touched snow for the 1st time of his life, he was excited! He said he's so "suaku".
Don't worry gal, I properly will be just like you (or even worse) if I was there. But 1st, I'm still not "over" with Pattaya and how can I travel to different parts of the world??? :-P

Pattaya, Thailand! My favourite get-a-way resort! Goes there at least thrice a year? Last visit was on my birthday (12 April)...almost didn't make it there cos my colleague and I wanted to try something new, this small city 3 1/2hrs bus journey Northeast of Thailand, called Nakorn Ratchatsima or in short, Korat. Probably we didn't do enough "homework" before going, the area we stayed is NOT (I repeat, "NOT") for tourists! Situah (my colleague) and I were the Only tourists! So we decided to take a 3 1/2hrs bus ride to Bangkok and another 2hrs bus ride to Pattaya after 1 night in Korat. It was a long journey but a brilliant decision! Felt like home when our bus arrived at the Pattaya bus interchange. "Relieved"

Met a regular guest (Thai) in the Hotel I work after my short get-away. He told me Korat has a very nice resort too...???
WHERE?????

Anyway, my usual Pattaya-"kaki", Carol is currently in Pattaya celebrating her birthday (HATE her!). My other Pattaya-"kaki", Selamat was also planning to go there over the weekends!!!
Well, Carol, Selamat & I usually travel together...they, too, are "ADDICTS" of Pattaya.
Carol has a boyfriend in Pattaya.
Selamat or "Azmi" (a name he used everytime the plane touch down in Bangkok airport), like me, loves the sand, beach, sun and the... "PARTIES".
We travelled so much together that we somehow knew what the other party wanted to do when we're in Pattaya. Now, that's what I called, REAL TRAVELLING "KAKIS"!

Met Selamat when I'm serving the army. He's also and still a fulltime/professional Musician in the army; he plays the French Horn. I knew him for...at least 10 years?
Met Carol after I leave the army. She was my fellow colleague as a tour guide in Sentosa. It's been... 7 years?
Met Faizal through a mutual friend. Knew him for...13 years!!!!!
These 3 are the BEST of my BEST friends!

People always asked me "Why Pattaya???", "You been there so many times, aren't you bored???". Funny thing is......I'm not! I just love the lifestyle there; relaxed and slow moving. And of cos, not forgetting what Thailand is famous for....NO! NOT the ago-go bars...it's the smile of the people "Land Of Thousand Smiles"!!!
I actually dreamt of moving there when I retired. Taking my CFP money with me and buy a nice sea-view, 3 storeys bangalow with a swimming pool facing the sea. But 1st, better start buying TOTO!
But then again, going there on a holiday and moving there to stay for good are 2 different things. Hmmmmmm....... anyway it's long long way to my retirement, or maybe not too far away? "frown"

Anyway, my next trip to you-know-where is in July. Bought the ticket in November last year when there was those special offers; "buy the tickets now and fly between when to when". It was a "2 cents" ticket!!! But, of cos, I have to pay for the taxes which came up to S$123...
However, my annual leave is not even approved yet! Keeping my fingers crossed!
I prayed to the 4 face Buddha when I was there in April, so I guess my leave should be approve?

It's My Life....Story

2007-04-29T10:43:00.000+08:00

Born : 12th April 1972
3rd child in the family; with 1 eldest sister and an elder brother and of cos my parents.
Grew up in a "kampong".
Went to Nee Soon Primary (bet no one heard of this school! hahaha)
Then to Ahmad Ibrahim Secondary.
Then to Singapore Technology Institute (now know as MacPherson ITE) but dropped out after 1st year cos I finally realised I HATED studying!
Moved from Kampong to HDB in Yishun just before I started Secondary 1 (Geeee! I forgot how old was I then...I also forgotten how old am I now :-P)
Moved one more time after that....but still within Yishun (how boring!!!)

Joined the School Band when I was in Secondary; played the Trumpet.
Later because of my music background from school days, I was selected to join the Army's Military Band when I was serving my National Service.
After 1 year in the Military Band, I decided to make music as my fulltime job (BLOW JOB); I signed on with the Army as a fulltime Musician (WHAT WAS I THINKING!!!!!?????), in total, I served 7 years instead of 2 (sob sob sob).

Decided to leave the Army in 1999 and get a REAL JOB!
Joined Singapore Cable Car as a Tour Guide for 2 years; Job's fun, pay SUCKS!
My Best Friend, Faizal, persuaded me to join him in Hotel line. Got me the job in Conrad.
Started as a Fitness Club Attendant (not that I'm FIT, I just needed the job then).
Switched to Front Desk after 3 months and has been with them since then....in total 5 1/2 years!
Now my job is mainly to handle complains...Duty Manager.

In between of what's written above, there's lots of other stuff (happy/sad/interesting/...). Maybe I'll write another Blog on "It's My Life...Story 2"....soon.

Me & Myself

2007-04-28T22:52:00.000+08:00

Hi Everyone!

I am so excited!!! It's my very 1st Blog!!! So here it goes....
Well, about myself...
Some people said I'm BITCHY...I disagree, I like to think I'm just straight forward, direct and don't beat around the bush. I expect people to treat me the same way too; you can tell me in my face what you don't like about me or what you think I said was wrong (not that I bother, unless you are a friend).
Some people said I'm sensitive...I agree, I'm a typical Aries; Sensitive, Compassion and Passionate!
*Norain (friend at work) pop the question : "If I'm sensitive then how can I expect people to
be straight forward and direct towards me?"
- Well I would rather have someone telling how awfully I dressed than to have someone telling
me the lies and laugh behind my back. And YES, on on hand, I'll will properly be sad but then again, I'll be even more upset to know someone is saying things behind my back.

Things I love to do...
- I'm a game-freak; I can sit 24hrs in front of my computer playing
computer games
- Love having kopi or teh and gossip away with my good friends.
- Listening to my Ipod
- Love travelling; been to
- Thailand; Phuket, Bangkok, Pattaya, Nakorn Rachatsima, Chiangmai
& Chiangrai
- South Africa; Cape Town, Simon Town, Kenya
- China; Shanghai
- Indonesia; Jakarta
- Japan; Maizuru

Love most - My FRIENDS
To me, friends are the most important thing in my Life!
- Good friends accept what/who you really are.
- Good friends will suppport your decisions.
- Good friends will be there when you need a shoulder to cry on or when
you need a listening ear or when you are down.
- Good friends will be happy when you are happy, will be sad when you
are sad.

Hate most - "PLASTIC" people; can't stand the sight of them!
Best way to tackle them? Be MORE "plastic" towards them!

Like most - Truthful & Honest people.

Dislike most - People judging me before they even know me!

*Liah (my counterpart at work) told me to upload some pictures to make my Blog more
interesting; hmmmmmm but I hate taking pictures!!! (never thought I was photogenic)
Maybe she meant pictures of other things/people???
Hmmmmmm...............................................................???

The pictures will come shortly....